I will no longer pick friends that are losers and have no other friends.
I will pick friends that like me and I like for their humor.
I will cease to push away people that are perfect for the good-me, in favor of people who are perfect for the bad-me.
If I be the average of my five friends, then let me have 5 awesome people instead of 2 awesome people and 3 losers.
Or 3 awesome people, 1 fallen awesome person, and 1 average joe.
Tuesday, March 26, 2019
What do I really want?
I have asked for things not expecting them.
Grandiose anchor prices, outlandish desires.
The moment of victory is followed by remorse.
Why did I bargain for a grandiose thing, when it is not what I really wanted?
But I do not want anything, therefore, I ask for grandiose things as a proxy for true desire.
I will hike Mt. Everest because I am confused.
I will ride a motorcycle across the USA because I am lost.
I will run 56 miles because that is something people can reference when they speak of me.
I will run 56 miles because that is something I can reference when I think of myself.
But why did I pursue that reference as a reference. There were other references I could have defined.
Why did I choose that reference to speak for me.
How did I get this resume? Choice or proxy for choice.
Too scared to decide, I'll let online bucket lists form a man?
Now I am hitting 30, and I wonder if I am on a trajectory that is running away like a wild train, like our national debt.
Okay, I'll stay on this train, because it is fast and majestic. But I would like to be in a cabin on a lake going -2 mph, useless to society, but useful to myself.
That is maturity? Doing things you don't want to do, because the future mandates it. Then when the future becomes the present, we wither?
Grandiose anchor prices, outlandish desires.
The moment of victory is followed by remorse.
Why did I bargain for a grandiose thing, when it is not what I really wanted?
But I do not want anything, therefore, I ask for grandiose things as a proxy for true desire.
I will hike Mt. Everest because I am confused.
I will ride a motorcycle across the USA because I am lost.
I will run 56 miles because that is something people can reference when they speak of me.
I will run 56 miles because that is something I can reference when I think of myself.
But why did I pursue that reference as a reference. There were other references I could have defined.
Why did I choose that reference to speak for me.
How did I get this resume? Choice or proxy for choice.
Too scared to decide, I'll let online bucket lists form a man?
Now I am hitting 30, and I wonder if I am on a trajectory that is running away like a wild train, like our national debt.
Okay, I'll stay on this train, because it is fast and majestic. But I would like to be in a cabin on a lake going -2 mph, useless to society, but useful to myself.
That is maturity? Doing things you don't want to do, because the future mandates it. Then when the future becomes the present, we wither?
Sunday, July 22, 2012
The Big Brown Leaf
When I see a fallen leaf
I feel much more than the tree
The fallen leaf so large and brown
The tree also though bound to the ground
The leaf is more triumphant alone
Amongst its other leaves on stones
Apart from the tree that gave it life
It still has a life but redefined
Triumphant and still living it lies
Beautiful, large, crisp
The leaf is more glorious than the tree.
Setting the Youth
With social youth movements such as the Beatnik's or the late 60's or Occupy Wall Street, the movement is not so much a portion of society desperate yet capable of expressing that desperation to the rest of society and future generations and evolutions of that society.
These listed movements are only a drop in pool of desperation a subest of society betrayed by a subset of society.
Perhaps the governent of the middle-aged millionaires may gain the support of the middle-class strugglers. And for the pesky youth, transitioning from the dependency of the middle-class struggling family t-o the dependency of government or private commerce to aspire to be a middle-class individual.
Maybe the government will prescribe some thing for the youth that are devoted to their own self-preservation, by empowering those desperate youths who will sell out and accept government funding to support the status quo.
The Americorps, the Navy, the Army, Air Force, Coast Guard, and college itself are attempts at a dependence on government while McDonalds, WalMart, distribution centers, and service jobs are attempts to have our youth dependent on private commerce.
These attempts have been successful in keeping status quo, yet the cost of these youth controlling institutions are beginning to exceed a state treasury's ability to pay.
What does the future hold? By that I mean will there be a cooperation amongst corporations and state to coordinate the management of people? The cooperation of taxation, lobbying, and sponsoring party officials has yet been very successful and has not managed to pique the criticisms of the subsets that are most affected by the collusion. Ironically that subset itself is individually taxed from the services they provide to the corporate body so there limited money may keep them in perpetual poverty while they feed the parasite of government, which in turn subsidizes the "private" sector.
My projection of the future June 2014 shows that of 100% of the ages 18-24, which are 16-22 now will breakdown as follows:
20% will be in college accruing debt which will be at 30,000 average four years with 7% interest.
10% will be supported by a government job either education or force-related.
10% will be comfortable with their parents.
10% will be
20% will be underemployed.
20% will be unemployed.
These listed movements are only a drop in pool of desperation a subest of society betrayed by a subset of society.
Perhaps the governent of the middle-aged millionaires may gain the support of the middle-class strugglers. And for the pesky youth, transitioning from the dependency of the middle-class struggling family t-o the dependency of government or private commerce to aspire to be a middle-class individual.
Maybe the government will prescribe some thing for the youth that are devoted to their own self-preservation, by empowering those desperate youths who will sell out and accept government funding to support the status quo.
The Americorps, the Navy, the Army, Air Force, Coast Guard, and college itself are attempts at a dependence on government while McDonalds, WalMart, distribution centers, and service jobs are attempts to have our youth dependent on private commerce.
These attempts have been successful in keeping status quo, yet the cost of these youth controlling institutions are beginning to exceed a state treasury's ability to pay.
What does the future hold? By that I mean will there be a cooperation amongst corporations and state to coordinate the management of people? The cooperation of taxation, lobbying, and sponsoring party officials has yet been very successful and has not managed to pique the criticisms of the subsets that are most affected by the collusion. Ironically that subset itself is individually taxed from the services they provide to the corporate body so there limited money may keep them in perpetual poverty while they feed the parasite of government, which in turn subsidizes the "private" sector.
My projection of the future June 2014 shows that of 100% of the ages 18-24, which are 16-22 now will breakdown as follows:
20% will be in college accruing debt which will be at 30,000 average four years with 7% interest.
10% will be supported by a government job either education or force-related.
10% will be comfortable with their parents.
10% will be
20% will be underemployed.
20% will be unemployed.
A course, planned and reviewed, carries one from a self defined state to a self defined state. The current state is just as uncertain if not more than the future state.
The intermediary between the current state and future state are in this theory considered a set of definined and (mostly) undefined moments.
The intermediary between the current state and future state are in this theory considered a set of definined and (mostly) undefined moments.
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